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*sigh*
It's early Friday morning and the only reason I'm awake is because I promised myself I would get one of the winter squash properly canned today, so I'm waiting on the pressure cooker which will be done in about an hour. Admittedly, my sleep schedule's been rather weird lately, and staying up to 3am isn't that unusual.

Of course, it's a bitter 7-degrees F outside, and our heater shuts off after midnight, so there's little reason I should be still up, so while I'm here I might as well update my journal while huddled up to a mug of chai.

The surgery to my foot went well, and my first post-op visit to Dr. U. included an X-ray to see if the screw is holding the bone in place properly, which it is. I'm supposed to be keeping my foot elevated and place ice under the knee to keep any swelling down, but I'm also now allowed to walk with the crutches as balance (i.e. I'm supposed to put some weight on my foot, but not much). Since this is nowhere near as painful as the heel surgery was, and I don't have the restriction of staying off my foot as much as possible, today I was wandering around the house trying to do a little housecleaning... I probably overdid it, as my toe is throbbing now. Oh, well. But it's such a relief not to feel couch-bound for a month. Yay!

For most of this week, I've been fighting a minor bug, sinus-related, that's been more annoying than outright debilitating. Maybe guzzling the gallon of cranberry juice per week is paying off! Either that, or it's just so cold that the bug can't get a grip on me (and I've not been out in public much since the surgery anyways). There are times, though, that I wish I could stick a vaccuum hose up my nose and suck out all this garbage because when it's not inflaming my nostrils, it's getting backed up into my ear canals. This is not a good thing, but it's better than having bronchitis.

Tonight, a bunch of us local furfolk are going down to South Jersey to see a friend in a community playhouse comedy. Due to some miscommunication, logistics, and timing, we will not be attending the Philly "Center City Restaurant Week" which I was looking foreward to; it's not so much because of this play as part of the snafu was the lack of communication about when we were planning on invading this play. After biting nails and trying to squeeze opinions out of people, I've decided that it'll be best if I drop any thoughts on Restaurant Week this year rather than trying to corral 3 different groups of peoples' schedules to try and do both the Restaurant Week and the play. I accept this, though I'm still bummed out by it.

Between the foot, the sinus infection, my finicky GI Tract acting up, and the gloomy frozen grey days we've been having, it's hard not to feel glum. Hearing news about friends being stepped on by others, or past-friends doing things that make me regret ever considering them a friend doesn't help my mood one bit. I'm feeling sick and tired of being sick and tired; I just want to dive into some activity or project that I can pull myself out of this funk with. Something that doesn't require creativity, as that's kinda in hibernation right now. Heck, I got email yesterday from someone yelling at me that my website's not been updated since 1999 and still says "Under Construction"... I'm sorry, but RL always takes precedence over VR, and having an updated website isn't as important as having a job to pay the bills or to be healthy, which is something out of my reach. Since 1999, I've had a nervous breakdown, severe unemployment, depression, asthma attacks, bronchitis, pneumonia, wrist surgery after a fall caused Carpal Tunnel, more asthma, finally getting diagnosed with ADHD which I've known about for years but couldn't get help for it, and finally not one but two foot surgeries. I don't want to sound like a whiner or anything, but Life hasn't been good to me for a while now. Maybe I should just take down my website and put up a sign saying "Due to Real Life difficulties beyond our control, this website is unavailable. Please stand by for updates" and leave *that* up for the next 5 years. Maybe then I'll stop getting pitaful emails trying to cower me into updating my site because some beanbrain wants to see p0rn. Yelling at me will not make me move faster; if anything, it guarantees that I will move slower.

On a brighter note, the house of Caer Carnivore is slowly getting repairs made which should help everyone's stress levels here. We got a new roof which was no small task as most roofers dread the mansard-style roof such as ours, and now I've been getting contractors to send me estimates for repairing the front porch and stairs. If everything goes right and goes under budget, the next round of repairs may include redoing the kitchen, which makes me whimper in frustration currently. Until my foot is completely healed, I'm not supposed to be doing anything like heavy lifting so I can't do upstairs and start clearing out the three storage areas, so once again I'm stuck. At least Wolf is slowly plodding away at his room, so there's light at the end of the tunnel for my eventual return to what was once my office, which is now Wolf's bedroom and storage area for some of SueDeer's things and what's left is all my junk... I can't safely walk around that room with my cam-walker (walking cast), so I just don't go up there much right now.

What I desparately wish to do is organize my room so I could start sewing again. I'll need to buy a new sewing machine, as the tensioner is failingon the current one, but I really want to get back into sewing animal plushes and costumes and the myriad other crafting projects that require stitchwork... like curtains, chairpads, pillows, and beanbag chairs. I'd like to do a "Clean Sweep" of my studio and get shelves up, drawers built, and things organized so I can start hammering down the stack of unfinished projects waiting for me. But, I still have to wait.

*sigh*

Current Mood: blah blah
Current Music: even the crickets are too cold to chirp

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twentythoughts From: twentythoughts Date: January 28th, 2005 12:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
Glad you can at least move around! Keeping yourself busy is really the best thing you can do. About your room... Well, even though you can't move about a lot, some of the stuff that tends to take the longest, is sorting through papers and other nicknacks. And that's usually pretty easy to do when one's sitting down :)

As for staying up late: Staying up until 3am's nothing! Nothing, I tell you!
beoweasel From: beoweasel Date: January 28th, 2005 12:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
Glad to hear things are looking up for, and I hope your situation improves further =D
momentrabbit From: momentrabbit Date: January 28th, 2005 02:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
Man, the rain's been falling on you for a while now, hasn't it..

My humble suggestion: replace the website with a page that reads "New site going up today! Click "Reload" to make sure you're the first to see it!" With any luck, the impatient will burn out their mice and leave us all in peace and quiet. ;)
kagur From: kagur Date: January 28th, 2005 02:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
Glad to hear the surgery went well, but sorry to hear things aren't going so well otherwise. I hope the repairs continue and you're able to resume your sewing work. How long this time before the cast comes off, or do you know?
khromat From: khromat Date: January 28th, 2005 04:30 pm (UTC) (Link)

Recovery Time

Dr. U says that it takes 8 to 12 weeks for the foot to be fully healed. My heel took longer because he was being very conservative in treatment -- my stubborn plantar fasciitis resisted all previous methods of treatment, so he didn't want to chance any problems recovering from the surgery. So, with any luck, the faster healing time I'm experiencing means that I'll have the cam-walker off by St. Patrick's Day. *cross fingers*
moonstalker From: moonstalker Date: January 29th, 2005 05:46 am (UTC) (Link)
I have a bit of trouble with the sleep issues as well. I work nights, but it would still be nice to sleep regularly on the days I'm off so as to be up at more 'normal' hours for socializing and taking care of things that you can't do at 3AM. I find it very hard to do since my body has become acclimated to being up at night, and I wind up falling asleep at 11PM, only to find myself suddenly and totally awake a couple of hours later.

I'm glad to hear that your foot is healing okay, though. When you were explaining to me about what they were going to have to do to fix it, it certainly sounded rather intense to deal with. Hopefully you'll be up and about soon and things will start looking better from there.
dustykat From: dustykat Date: January 30th, 2005 07:41 am (UTC) (Link)
*Hugs*

Always wishing for the best, for all of you.
darklilith69 From: darklilith69 Date: February 2nd, 2005 01:21 pm (UTC) (Link)
Stripey hugs, Squeakers!

I get to have foot surgery myself in three weeks and then more on the other foot whenever my insurance okays it.

I hope you heal well. Lots of water and good sleep. Hmmm. You're not doing so well on the sleep thing, are you? Women heal the most while they're sleeping. After the 90 minute mark of deep sleep. Soooo, hot chocolate? Warm milk? Counting...sheep? *smile* Counting the whiskers on your cat? *grin*

*snugs* Hugs from a zebby gal
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